Scribbles of a child

January 3, 2010

I wrote this one again for my younger bro, Raffy.

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If you can’t see something it doesn’t mean that it’s not there… a passage from an old movie we used to watch when we were still young, the Small Soldiers. It was a movie about a boy and some moving and talking action figures. Some of them became his friends while the rest became his enemies.

It correlates so much with life. We are the major characters in the movie and then we have friends and enemies. Each of them play an important role in our lives; they all teach us a lesson we will need later on in life no matter what side they’re on.

Just a few months now and I shall be ending the movie I’ve started within the premises of this school. I shall be threading a new path beyond the boundaries I was once afraid to step on. We experience things that are worth remembering and as time passes by, the only things that will be left are the memories. I shall be leaving all the bad memories behind and I will carry on the worthy ones.

Think about the people in your life right now, they tend to pull you down or they’ll help you up so you can reach your goals and succeed. Trusting people and taking risks are all part of the process of life.

“If we fight, we will lose… but if we hide we still lose… so no more hiding.” We tend to run away from everything when the world seems dark, we give up. No matter how hard life is, we shouldn’t let the fear of failing and falling struck us and stop us from moving on. Let us always bear in mind that the road towards our goal will always be difficult, yet tough it may seem there’s always a way out. We forget that there are a lot of people out there who are ready to help us whenever we’re in need. We just neglect them.

Life is a race… but it doesn’t really matter whether you reach the goal first or not. What matters in the end are the experience and the lessons we learned in life, whether we made a difference. I know it’s only the start of the adventure; it’s too early to say something that we will regret at the end. Even if I couldn’t see the goal yet I know it’s there… waiting for me.

The most beautiful things in life cannot be seen but can only be felt. The memories I’ve had will be kept deep inside my heart and whenever I look back, it will bring me back to those days I treasure so much. We may all have to part ways someday. We may leave the people we love and we would have to let go either but I know that we’re all under the same sky so we could never be that far. I may not see them often but I have them here in my heart. It’s a small world after all…

~ant

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post from my friendster blog

• October 6, 2009

 

 

Change

 

I wrote this for my younger brother….

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Oftentimes we experience change. We have to admit it that we hate such thing even though it is a permanent one. We tend to forget that it’s a usual part of life and it is common for everyone.

It’s more annoying when it happens to our friends. All of a sudden they grew up and mature into individuals we barely knew. And with my young mind I couldn’t help but ask why certain things just happen although I know I am changing, too.

I have had acquaintances and I have met new friends while I couldn’t help others leaving their long-time footprints behind. My experiences showed me that the world will continue on moving even though I was left to dwell unto memories. I know they do not mean to do such thing, perhaps they are driven by something and as what I have said there is always a constant change.

It’s hard to let go of them because you know deep inside your heart that you spent your life keeping the connection alive. Bonds aren’t created overnight. You would have to earn for it… for months and for years. And I just hope that no matter how time flies, the bonds we have with my friends will always be there no matter what change may occur.

As I continued on with life I began to get used with the change I once hated even though it wasn’t easy to accept. It takes a lot of time and courage to get used to it.I still hate it sometimes but now I know that change somehow gives life an essence. We find those real people that would stay with us no matter how confusing life is. And they are those who are really worthy to be called friends.

There are a lot of lessons out there but so far I have learned; you will never know your importance unless you experience one. For every move you do, you change a life… or you change your life. It is either for the better or for the worst. Through the changes we face, we discover the real world… if we’re lucky we find ourselves… we realize who we really are and our worth.

 

~ant

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post from my friendster blog

•  October 6, 2009

 

 

 

 

Her writings on her wall

Oooopsies… just wanted to break the silence within my blog.. it has been ages since i last posted here and i miss writing stuffs… however life’s making us all busy…

 

So as i was a bit sneaky… what i do when i’m bored and i have nothing else to do aside from editing photos and writing unnecessary things concerning about my life is to read…

I read books, news i found interesting, feature stories and BLOGS…

 

i happen to passed by R-yan’s place…

*coughs* Ma’am Ariane

 

and her blog posts struck me - i was smiling and laughing when i read them *nods* - i just hope she doesn’t get angry with me for reposting her articles in my blog. I’m going to give her all the credit though, i just wanted to share it although i know only a few people read other people’s blog.. or i might be wrong.

 

I sent her a message and she agreed that i could repost them here - i have proof… *grins*

 

i own nothing here except for this brief introduction (isn’t it quite obvious that i’m trying my best to make it appear long by adding spaces *snaps fingers*) Okay…Fine… I’m not going to bug you with my words anymore… enjoy reading and try to ENGULF EVERY WORD.

 

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“Love Triangles”

Lately, napansin ko, medyo uso na naman pala ang mga third parties… Most people who got dumped for another would say “it wasn’t my fault! It was that b*tch/Ah*le!” well, maybe yes… maybe no… I don’t know… But i have this question in mind though…

You see, kapag hindi pa kayo, kahit nililigawan ka nya, kung hindi mo pa naman siya sinasagot, kapag tumingin sya sa iba, wala kang karapatang sumbatan sya…

Kung kayo na, tapos tumingin sya sa iba, yan, pwede mo na syang sumbatan to your heart’s content…

Pero pano pag kayo nga, and he fell for somebody else,.. Yes of course you have the right to fight for him but the thing is, what’s there to fight for diba? Mahal mo nga sya, pero mahal naman nya’y iba. Ipaglaban mo man sya, ang tanong ngayon ay, para saan pa?

Para sa mga iniwan at ipinagpalit sa iba jan,. Para sa mga nagkaron ng “unfaithful” partners… i can’t say “i understand” because the thing is, i haven’t been there yet. But one thing is for sure, hindi nyo sila kawalan. Sabi nga nila, there are many fishes in the sea. You just happen to have caught the janitor fish which sucks on every dirt it senses… Swim on, marami pa jan^_^

Para sa mga naiwan parin, but whose partners were brave enough to tell them they’ve met somebody else. Well, i’m sorry for the loss and yet, probably it was a blessing na kahit papano, you had the opportunity to spend time with someone who is brave enough to let you know things… You see, when they tell you they’ve met someone, its not just you who is hurting. In one way or another, i know, they’re hurting, too.

Para naman sa mga nangloko at nang-iwan: bilog ang mundo. Wait till you find your match.

At syempre, para sa mga faithful, hmmm… ano nga bang sasabihin ko sa inyo? There’s no greater gift to your partner than respect and unconditional love… For some people, they don’t believe in happily ever afters… Who knows if it does really exist. Maybe it does, maybe it doesn’t… But i’m sure, its something we make… It’s a recipe designed for two people to make… so when you find that person you see yourself growing old with, make sure you start making your own happy ending.

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“FYI”

 

To all those who keep on comparing themselves to other people;

To all those who think they are better than everybody else;

To all those who think so highly of themselves and who belittle others;

Heed this:

 

 

What has gotten into you? Why do you keep comparing yourself to other people? Tell me, does it give you a great feeling of satisfaction to brag about you being better than most people surrounding you?

 

Well, sorry to burst your bubble dear but I beg to disagree. Graduating from one of the most prestigious universities does not make you smarter nor more qualified nor better than everybody else. In fact, earning a bachelor’s degree, from any school for that matter, does not make you any more special than anybody.

 

You see dear, you can’t just judge people based from their educational background. Sometimes, better lessons are learned from outside the restricted corners of classrooms.

 

Remember dear that the man who discovered fire was not even capable of fully speaking a defined language, much more reading and writing. Look back in history. A lot of personalities who has admirable achievements didn’t even know what college meant and yet, they succeeded. They didn’t earn any degrees but they certainly know what they really wanted in life and they were certain with what they were capable of doing. And I think, beyond good education, having that kind of outlook in life would be a much greater advantage to anybody’s part.

 

So the next time you compare yourself with other people just because of your educational attainment, THINK AGAIN.

 

Remember what our teachers in primary school kept telling us: EMPTY CANS PRODUCE GREATER NOISE WHEN YOU LET IT ROLL DOWN THE HILL THAN THE FULL ONES.

 

To sum things up, the point dear is:

1.   Stop belittling other people;

2.   Nobody is better than anybody;

3.   Before you open your mouth, examine yourself carefully;

4.   If you don’t have anything nice to say, keep your thoughts to yourself;

5.  Stop comparing yourself to other people

6.   Lastly, prove that you’re worth something. Please, quit complaining!

 

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I copied the quote from her blog post entitled, “Places i want to go”

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Just what the book “The Secret” says: The world is governed by law of attraction. Your thoughts are transformed into energy which stimulates the universe to change it self into something that you’ve thought it to be. You attract what you think.

 

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“Speaking of the Devil”

Last time, I talked about places where I want to go. Today I’d like to talk about rights. First in my list is the very much abused freedom of speech.

 

It’s a common knowledge, even to a grade schooler, that freedom of speech is something innate. Something that comes naturally, just like breathing. This is basically the reason why this is one right that is commonly abused by some people. But you see, it does not have to be this way.

 

Freedom of speech, just like everything else, just like life itself, has its limitations. Not because you were given a gallon of ice cream means you’d eat it all right?

 

EVERYTHING THAT IS IN EXCESS IS BAD FOR YOU.

 

We were given the basic freedom of speech for us to be able to express our selves. Well probably, for you, talking ill of someone or something may still be covered by your freedom of speech. Well, probably it is, probably its not (remember slander and libel?). But you see, the world is governed by certain laws. Laws equals limitations. It might not have been explicitly stated in our bill of rights that our freedom to speak has limitations but certainly, there are limitations to it. What limits our right to speak is called your ETIQUETTE, MANNERS, DECORUM. If you don’t have this, then I understand why you’re like that.

 

And speaking of this right, there’s this one way that most people today use to abuse this right and that is: UNLIMITED TEXT MESSAGING, GROUP MESSAGING.

 

Well, at first I said, unlitxts come quite handy, especially during my college days wherein we had to relay school info to our classmates. But later on, with all due respect to everybody, it became such a nuisance. You see, most of my classmates back then were using a SMART SIM and I was using globe. So what happens most of the time is that, messages are relayed but only to those who are using smart sim because, quote and unquote: “Wala akong extra load”. Okay fine.

 

And today? I’m getting spam messages about low interest loans, promos and other bunch of nonsense!

 

What’s even worse is that, some people also use it as a sort of blog, you know, texting people to update friends to let them know what’s up with them.

 

Well, it’s good to be connected. I admit, I do GMing sometimes but before I send it to my grouplist, I read my message a couple of times first. I have to consider whether:

1.   it is worth sending at all (especially that I don’t use unlitxts because I don’t know how to use it^_^)

2.   whether it may be offensive to some or not and lastly

3.   whether the people in my grouplist would be able to relate to it or not.

The last time I went out, I heard this group of teens saying “Nag GM na naman sya. Like may sense naman sinasabi nya right? Sayang lang ATP nya sa pagtetxt”.

 

Well, come to think of it, sana, before you guys send your next GM, think about this: would those people in your grouplist really appreciate it? Or would they rather think it’s a waste of storage space?

 

As they say, there are three things in this world that can never be taken back: time spent, actions done and words spoken.

 

So be careful with what you say/text. You may regret sending/saying them in the long run.

 

So this is it. Enjoy the rest of your day people!

 

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Learned something?

*winks*

Ü

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post from my friendster blog

• August 4, 2009 

 

A feather’s Piece: A glimpse on the Life of BSN 2-D

We were supposed to be enjoying the warm summer breeze somewhere else not inside a room listening to lectures, rushing experiments, home works and projects to meet deadlines.

Getting stuck inside the four walls of the classroom wasn’t the best idea for a vacation. We easily got bored sitting there for hours and usually fell asleep and had let our minds drift somewhere else. We go home exhausted even though what we just did at school was to learn new things or if not learn, to polish what we already have in mind.

Before I really appreciated the scene that we were still intact and we were still together laughing, complimenting and criticizing each other for the good and funny things that we do, time had passed by my very eyes without me even noticing it. It’s the last week of summer class and I hate the feeling. That something good and great would have to come to an end. That it is nearly time to say goodbye.

And so as I reminisce back the good old days, no one is really rich enough to buy back that yesterday… those memories are priceless. We aren’t getting any younger and these are all part of a process we had to go through. And if I could wind back my life, I will take that chance to step into the scene once more when I first stepped into that room and saw new faces and a few familiar ones back on the month of June 2008. I hated it then.

I hated it…

But that was then.

It’s not everyday that we find certain people that can make us laugh amidst life’s difficulties with a simple smile, hello, frown and joke

We were all 47. At first divided by some gaps but we got along and we got used with each others attitudes. I found myself laughing along with them as some cracked jokes, teased others, and maybe there are pranksters. I watched our story unfold right before my very eyes. There are qualms and arguments that are settled and unsettled. But even if we are like this, still we did learn many things through each other. Coz If you were to ask me, I learned a lot from them.

It’s as if Life had brought 47 people on the same train station and that it allowed us to enjoy the train ride with each other’s company. We developed a friendship so strong enough to break odds. Although the ride had to slow down at certain points to introduce change, welcome new passengers… bring distractions and stuffs, who cares about it? We were having so much fun that we had a lot of memories. We don’t need a proof for that.

The path was indeed long and weary - through dark tunnels, forests and strange places; that it brought us closer together. But just like any other ride, time will come that the train will have to stop when it finally reaches its destination. And as i feel the train come to a halt, we ready ourselves and one by one we move out. I bid goodbye to those lovely faces I got used to.There’s another train ride on my way to the other station, yet, that ride wouldn’t be like the first one: it would have different faces and another experience. I might look for a familiar face, but even if I see one, being used seeing 47 people doing pranks and stuffs would bring back the feeling of longing… And somehow I would wish even if I’m in the middle of a lively crowd that I was in that train ride again where the BSN 2-D was formed and became a FAMILY than just classmates and friends.

It was only once in a lifetime and I am lucky enough to be with them, to be able to know them and to be able to be a part of their lives. They have shown me how colorful the world could be through their own created personas.

I’m going to miss the early morning jokes and laughter’s, the noise that fills the air during vacant and discussions along with jeers and screams. Their ways of calling such as “bestfriend”, “ate,” “siwst,” “baket,” “lakay,” and many more. It would take me forever to name all the things I’ll be missing. There would be a lot of reminiscing – a lot of simple things that would remind me of the huggable moments I had with them that I couldn’t just find somewhere else.

I was never a good speaker. I stutter and everything… I just wanted them to know, I treasure them so much. And after everything that had happened maybe it’ s just the right thing to do, I wanted to say thank you… thank you so much.

I would have to say, that was the world I know; the life we had together. It had been different… so special that I couldn’t explain how happy I am that i didn’t spend my life some other place but I spent it with the very few people I found real and True. We are just under the same sky and MMSU BSN 2-D (S.Y. 2008-2009) will always be MMSU BSN 2-D (S.Y. 2008-2009).

47 heads,

47 different features.

47 distinctive smiles and frowns.

47 unique voices.

47 minds with billions of thoughts.

I’m one of them.

And I’m proud of them.

~antonette

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post from my friendster blog

• May 20, 2009 

 

Speech Communication

This one is a Valedictory Speech “kuno” of Melnic for our Speech Communication class today. (9-2pm) He asked me to write a speech after Julius had asked them to present some speeches as an activity for the public speaking report. So for the sake of our group, Melnic presented it and I gathered up my thoughts and started to write… it was just a short one though. Time wasn’t enough so there were errors. However they are changed now.

It was meant to touch the hearts of BSN 2-D, but, their jokes and screaming had surpassed his voice and so only a few had appreciated the overall speech. I’m so gonna miss those scenes. But before the speech I just wanted to share how the class had been so joyous at that moment.

We were supposed to have our final exam on Speech Communication however our instructor said we’ll have to report first and so we were quite disappointed but then as the class went on, he was enjoying and so are we. There were dull moments but nothing can replace those smiles that were painted on our faces a while a back.

So Julius’ group reported and then there’s the activity about public speaking. Speeches include, MC Speech by Von, Valedictory address by Melnic, Wedding Message by Kenneth, Funeral message by Hazel which was so funny.

The story of the short play goes like this… Melnic celebrated his highschool graduation, then the next day he got married with Hazel and then he passed away. Kenneth’s speech was unscripted. It was so funny he didn’t know what to say, and we were all laughing, because he even asked, “Sinno ngamin tay agkasaren?” He’s the best friend of Melnic there. And according to his speech, Melnic and Hazel had been together for 5 years. After that, it was Hazel’s turn, she even had singers. (lol… I sang too) She gave a message to her husband for a day but boyfriend for five years… and the speech came out to be a song in the end. With the lyrics, “because you loved me,” and ones I can’t remember coz I was busy laughing at that moment. Hazel had props too… tissue and bouquet of flowers, and I can’t explain but I know it was a very hilarious scene.

Well guess those ones were really  unscripted coz Julius made us cry after the activity, he had a short speech. And I thought it had something to do with their report. (yes it’s speaking in public) He gave a speech about us, BSN 2-D. And I actually have the video on my camera. I guess people cried even though it’s just a short one coz I did.

Then Sir Fernandez said the final exam was cancelled and let’s take pictures. (that’s why he brought his camera… and so we had to ask Yuri from Section C at the next to take the pictures so we’ll be complete) And he also gave a short speech, I don’t have that one.

And that’s it. Very random but I will treasure the scene.

So here goes the speech… i accidentally deleted Melnic’s video *sigh*

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Four years ago, I was once a youngster, innocent of what lies ahead after graduating from Elementary. Unaware. Unprepared for bigger opportunities. However, those four years of toiling and working hard had brought me to where I am now. It was indeed a long and tedious journey. I had to undergo certain changes in order for me to grow and develop. And so along the way I met people who have helped me hone my hidden capabilities as an individual, as a student and for me to be a responsible man in the future.

I have been through a lot of things and it would be take me forever to reminisce back. I did succeed and I am proud to say through all my failures I learned how to cope up. I learned how to stand on my own and I opened my wings for possibilities. I learned to take risks however; I had to keep my feet on the ground so as not to fall. Through time and adjustments I have made this school my home and have deemed you as my family.

Life is hard and it will always be and many times in our lives we are faced with tough decisions and we have to choose between good and bad. Those choices have paid off because today we are again leaving the portals of this school which have served as our home.

After this, the path leads to the unknown. We are to face different directions that would bring us to where we are meant to be. Life is full of crossroads and I am thankful that life’s twist and turns had led me to where I belong.

Here.

To all our mentors thank you for opening our shells and guiding us as we thread the winding road of life. Thank you for developing our skills. Thank you for being a part of our journey.

To my parents, words are not enough to express my gratitude for all of your sacrifices. I can never repay you.

To my fellow graduates, let us show the world what we can do and let’s act for the betterment of humanity. Let’s introduce change. But always bear in mind that we are the change that we seek.

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Got a quote from President Barrack Obama there, “We are the change that we seek.”

~antonette

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post from my friendster blog

• May 20, 2009