whinings

wrote this last night..

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME>>^_^

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Have you heard of the latest zodiac sign? Well, a reason why my zodiac had changed. Which isn’t really good for me. I do not believe in those things however you know the feeling when you pop open a newspaper or a magazine with horoscopes in it, wherein you just look at your own zodiac and not minding the other ones. I just became a Sagittarius. And I can’t imagine reading a Sagittarius horoscope from now on.

So it’s almost eleven in the evening of January 16, 2011.The last hours of my being 17^th again. Haha. Then tomorrow which is my birthday… I’ll turn 17 again. It’s just that I remain 17 however I do not stop aging. (that is definitely bad) I claim to be a 17 year old. (laughs)

Hmmmm, I sat here at the living room while Mike and Bianca is busy watching When in Rome. I have a headache and I want to sleep already but there’s a lot going on my mind as always. This time important stuffs which can make or break my future. For the past years, before my birthday or during it I always feel melodramatic over things.

And so it’s cold right now. I’m freezing. Tomorrow we will be heading to Bangui community. And I am gonna spend my birthday there.

Bryan gave me a bonnet last night as an unwrapped gift. I liked it anyway. No. I love it. I wanted to buy one for myself but I never got a chance. And thanks to him.

So now what? Nothing? Headache buzzing my head. I am just pouring all my thoughts here. Because I want to say a lot of things but I got no one to talk to. Everybody’s busy. It’s usual. I am used to it.

I am not yet finished with my case study. It’smaking me mad already. even our group case and thesis. I am wondering, why am I so indulged in doing it when in fact my groupmates aren’t. and I hate this attitude of mine wherein I get so nervous and all that I cram even if it’s still a few days away. (prolly due to my I-still-don’t-want-to-sleep-coz-it’s-a-waste-of-time-thingy) maybe that’s why I don’t wanna relax and have a break.

Tomorrow, it will  be Tanney’s birthday. (tanney- the bear that BRYAN gave me on my birthday last year) hmmm. It will also be a year for him. Since mum last saw him running after handling the bloody red paper bag with a small note and which contained the bear.

It has been a year. Yes and there had been a lot of change. So much have happened. And I am so tired keeping them in my mind already. Probably I have to let go of thing so I can work well. Hmmm. It’s just that every now and then they pop out of nowhere and there I’ll find myself lost again.

So I’m really sleepy now. But I still can’t go to sleep coz they are still here… hmmm. And I have to post you still so as to keep a memory of my last post before my birthday.

Now what again? i miss Keso.

Hmmmm. Oh, I might as well thank the people who stayed with me through the curves of life. When I was about to jump off a cliff and take the risk of reaching the bottom unarmed and unready. *hugs you all*

Thank you to you, Mine. For making me happy and inspired.

So it’s really getting colder and colder. Brrrrr. My hands are so dry. And my headache is growing and growing.

Guess I really have to go.

^^