When clouds go gray

Falling in love for someone who doesn’t want you… “Who cares but doesn’t care the way you want them to”… is one of the most common cliché nowadays.

In simple terms, falling in love with your bestfriend… or considered bestfriend.

As far as I know, there’s no rule in friendship. There’s no line that sets the do’s and don’ts. One thing that I know about friendship is that, it never ends even though you part ways.

Well, I wouldn’t deny the fact that I once felt that way for someone and I’m glad I’m over it now. Thanks to Him for helping me realize it’s not worth it.

But another thing is what if you fall again, for your bestfriend, this time in the person of someone who helped you forget the first?

Lucky? I don’t think so.

Especially if that friend of yours does not feel the same way and to your point of view, he/she just remembers you when they have nothing else to do or they feel like hanging out.

A lot of quotes had been running around thru GM’s, posts on networking sites saying that people do not really have to insist themselves to people who doesn’t really care for them, coz you’re just making a fool out of yourself by expecting something in return when in fact you know from the very start it’s unrequited love.

What’s worse is that you end up being miserable and them being happy. That even when you try to smile, still your eyes says everything… that you’re not okay and you wanna burst into flames just so the feelings would go the same.

But how are you going to face the problem when you can’t even tell them about it? That the more you see them, the more painful it gets and the deeper the wound gets.

>>>i have writeen this long ago… yeah this was so ages ago…

2010 goodbye

Boom! Boom! Boom!

firecrackers here and there and it’s not even midnight.

less than 3 hours before we totally bid goodbye to 2010. it has been a great year for me. fun year for some, sad, depressing year for others. but even though all of us didn’t enjoy the past year, let us try to face 2011 and the next years of our lives with gladness and hopes in our hearts.

we definitely can’t have those days we want back, but pretty sure, we can make more memories and we can make them more memorable this time.

this year’s new year was kinda different for us. We are complete, yes, with relatives helping in the preparation, cooking and eating (hahaha) but i guess, one thing is missing… this year we didn’t have barbecue or what other people know as Kebab. ha-ha, just a simple one..lol.

i thank God for giving me again another year to share and to cherish.Coz what’s next… is my birthday…

well let’s just see what happens next..

let’s go dig in some food..

enjoy the last remaining hours of this great Year..

^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR..

we’re still the same

we got older by age… got taller.. got leaner. got heavier.

got our own lovelifes.

but we were still the same. friends. and that is one thing i love so much about high school buddies. coz no matter where we go, we still are brothers and sisters. 

and last December 24, 2010, we had this reunion. after 3 years?

it’s not as if we do not see each other (especially to us nursing students.. so even if we were not complete, that only 1/4 of venus and ceres came for that picnic, still we enjoyed.

  the last picture? hmmmm, of two old lovers.. lol

tahahaha, and Mariz, who loved to take videos of our not so important activities took this video as we were somewhat busy doing the math against an ice cream vendor..

^_^

drumstick dilemma

it was indeed a merry Christmas for us..

When clouds go gray

Falling in love for someone who doesn’t want you… “Who cares but doesn’t care the way you want them to”… is one of the most common cliché nowadays.

In simple terms, falling in love with your bestfriend… or considered bestfriend.

As far as I know, there’s no rule in friendship. There’s no line that sets the do’s and don’ts. One thing that I know about friendship is that, it never ends even though you part ways.

Well, I wouldn’t deny the fact that I once felt that way for someone and I’m glad I’m over it now. Thanks to Him for helping me realize it’s not worth it.

But another thing is what if you fall again, for your bestfriend, this time in the person of someone who helped you forget the first?

Lucky? I don’t think so.

Especially if that friend of yours does not feel the same way and to your point of view, he/she just remembers you when they have nothing else to do or they feel like hanging out.

A lot of quotes had been running around thru GM’s, posts on networking sites saying that people do not really have to insist themselves to people who doesn’t really care for them, coz you’re just making a fool out of yourself by expecting something in return when in fact you know from the very start it’s unrequited love.

What’s worse is that you end up being miserable and them being happy. That even when you try to smile, still your eyes says everything… that you’re not okay and you wanna burst into flames just so the feelings would go the same.

But how are you going to face the problem when you can’t even tell them about it? That the more you see them, the more painful it gets and the deeper the wound gets.

Pray: That’s one of the best thing we can do in Life

I had my spiritual birthday Last August 11, 2010. I felt so blessed that day. I felt so happy. I am saved. That time I learned to trust God with all my heart. That if I believe in Him, He’ll make a way for my prayers to come true. He seemed to have taken all my hurts, the doubts and fears I have that I just felt so relieved from all the burdens.

And I have proven it, coz starting then, every morning upon waking up and every night before sleeping I pray to Him that He may bless me and make my day worth it and successful…that he may make my duties great and that I may learn things with him guiding me and protecting me from harm. I have learned to cast my doubts and fears away, that despite having a busy day I can still manage to have a positive outlook – and I can still smile. Despite having an exhausting day, I still go home satisfied and fulfilled because I knew that he was with me all along.

Just recently, I had another duty. And it was not really a toxic one, but it seemed like one that it nearly made me break down and cry. I suddenly remembered I forgot to pray. I forgot to ask for His guidance and blessing - that I’ve been feeling so terrible all day and I felt so alone. I feel so sorry for myself, I was again lost.

I wanted to cry, if only I had entrusted my worries to God, I wouldn’t have been feeling so lost. And every time I forgot to talk to God, I worry – that is one thing I have noticed. That is why I am trying to pray to him everyday even though I do not go to Church often. I know that he still listens to me, because he never misses the desire of anyone’s heart as long as we believe in His power.

If we believe, He will make it achievable and true for us.